Sunday, August 31, 2008

Some cool ish

I witnessed on the train today two young hispanic chicas conversing about why Obama is the right candidate for the presidency of these united states. One girl was going on more than the other mostly about his speech for the dnc. Heard her say if she was old enough she'd be voting for him. I figure she must be only about a year or two away but when was the last time you heard of some young people, not from an affluent upbringing, conversing current politics. I've never seen it until now. See, Obama wasn't bullshittin' about change! It's happening and I for one am glad for it.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Claire Huxtable

You know, I loved the Cosby Show growing up. I STILL love the Cosby Show. It remains to this very day the BEST show that television has ever seen in this country. PERIOD!! And watching this wonderful show as I grew something happened. I wanted to marry Claire Huxtable when I got older. Phylicia Rashad gave one of the best acting performances week after week over the course of 7-8 years. And though she was never truly recognized by her contemporaries and the industry (an emmy) I hope she understands and knows that she was always appreciated by at least one little black boy. And I know I wasn't the only one. I had a crush on Claire Huxtable and I am not ashamed to admit it. One could do a LOT worse. That's kind of why I like Michelle Obama so much. Michelle is like a real life Claire Huxtable. Obama is a very lucky man (not trying to take anything away from the man) and what's really, really cool about him is he knows it and has no problem admitting to it. Which is how true love between two people is supposed to be. This country needed to see such a strong display of love. And it really needed to see this kind of love between black people. Michelle and Obama, on so many levels, are so so needed right now. So, this is in celebration of Claire Huxtable, that wonderfully beautiful ideal to aspire to for so many young men, and to Michelle Obama, the real life equivalent!

Two beautiful women!

Oh boy!

A rather important fact has been revealed to me by my body. Right now it is screaming, FEED ME!!!!!!! I have a bad habit of not really eating regularly and the near shut down of my system I feel coming on, coupled with the current knowledge that I'm about to become VERY busy, is telling me I can no longer get away with my periodic mealtimes. I must provide my meat sack with REGULAR sustenance! Oh boy! Another added element to my schedule is ALL I needed. (This is a rather important one, though. I've had a collapse due to dehydration once. THAT was an in the future experience to avoid at all costs. I've been doing a decent job so far but I kind of feel those sensations I felt when I collapsed before, now. I don't like these fucking feelings. I NEVER, NEVER, EVEREVEREVEREVEREVER WANT TO GO THROUGH THAT SHIT AGAIN. It's embarrasing, one, and two, it sucks to have your body not properly respond to your mental/spiritual self. Your mind is TRYING to exert control and homeostatic status and your body is saying, FUCK YOU ASSHOLE! SHOULDA TOOK BETTER CARE! WE'RE GOING TO SHUT DOWN NOW! NOTHING YOU CAN DO! STOP TRYING! BETTER LUCK IN THE FUTURE! Now naturally the mind is stubborn and keeps trying to absolutely NO avail. Your positively freezing AND sweating profusely, which makes NO sense since you're dehydrated. Wow, the human body is a complicatingly complex machine. There's paramedics, there's the gurney/body carry thingy, there's the back of the hospital truck, there's the IV of hydrating fluids [which reminds me as soon as I leave here I gotta get some gatorade or equivalent fluid], there's the ice packs, and the time waiting for the body to absorb and redistribute the rehydrating fluids. Like I said, fucking embarrasing!) Anyways, I know I went kind of on a tangent but, from the description of the experience maybe you can see why. I really, really don't need a repeat of that shit. Especially not in this damn city. I mean I love my hometown, but in NY you see fuckers passed out or strungout lookin' ALL the time, therefore people DO NOT stop to help or check. AND I understand why, but I would still be PISSED AS HELL if I was down and noone tried to help. The retarded ass human condition. We are strange creatures to each other and within ourselves. Oh well.... I need some fuckin' food!

Reality check

Well I registered for school. Once again. Hopefully for the last time. School, no matter what level, is booooooringgggg! High School was boring. My friends and a very few choice teachers made HS bearable. Most of the college level courses I've taken over the years have been along the lines of the lazy guys guide to college. Most of the classes I took were at a community college so I pretty much took what the fuck I wanted and interested me and that's it. Seemed the best way to keep myself interested. Take shit I WANT TO, RIGHT?!!!! Well, it don't work that way in a private or more "established" or "refined" learning establishment. (I realize it don't work that way at a comm. college either. at least not if you actually WANT a degree:-) SO, anyways, I find myself having to take some courses I have ABSOLUTELY KNOW INTEREST IN, WHATSOEVER!!!!!!!! However, since this happens to be a very decent school and, most importantly, my educationairy pursuits are being PAID FOR, I shall endure and prosper. I realize that even though I don't want to take these courses I still might learn something useful. All info is useful if you learn a useful way to apply it. And being that I am a writer, all info is useful in some form. My life has gone from 0-60 in like two months. I've gone from a rather hermit lifestyle to a full blown schedule having man on the move. WTF is wrong with me?!!! Job, school, Aikido, throw writing personal shit in there, not to mention reading personal shit and I'm like just a super glutton for super punishment. Ah well. I'm gonna be fuckin' BUSY and very, very, very TIRED!!!!!!


My man Dave did a rather well done review of the film Traitor. Therefore I will not do my own since I wrote a comment to his with my own added thoughts. So, here's the link to his review and my comment. Traitor

Is this ME?!

Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test ...
NBPC - The Daydreamer

Nature, Background, Big Picture, and Color

You perceive the world with particular attention to nature. You focus on the hidden treasures of life (the background) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the colors around you. Because of the value you place on nature, you tend to find comfort in more subdued settings and find energy in solitude. You like to ponder ideas and imagine the many possibilities of your life without worrying about the details or specifics. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You are a down-to-earth person who enjoys going with the flow.

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For those who know me let me know if you think this is me? I have my own opinion but would not like to adversely affect anyones thought processes as they pertain to me.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Check it!

My man, Wisdom Supreme, is having a get together Uptown, (Harlem for those who don't know) this coming Sunday, 8-31. Check the banner below.

Monday, August 25, 2008


Don't tell me that there aren't any creative people out there! Real artistry will never die. Applies to the man behind the song but I wrote this for the dudes that did this video. Tight shit!


OH MY GOD!!! This has to be the funniest shit I've seen in a while! I literally laughed 'til I cried. Come on! How tight is this. One of the tightest tracks from one of hip hop's tightest duo's edited damn near flawlessly with clips of SS's Bert and Ernie. This is classic shit. This is what modern technology is for. This is why YouTube exists, right here! I love this shit!!!!!! This made my muthafuckin day! ANTE UP!!

Look man...!

I hate childish bullshit! For real. My co-worker just pissed me off over some real bullshit. Talkin' 'bout communicating and shit. Muthafucka, you didn't communicate shit before now, all of a sudden your boat gets rocked a bit, and now people need to communicate shit to you? Fuuuuuck that! Get out my face with that shit! I'm not detailing shit here, for what I hope are obvious reasons. I mean, he just pulled a silly bitch move but, I ain't tryin' to contribute to him losing his job. I don't owe any allegiance or anything but this is more personal than anything so, no details, 'cuz you never know who's reading shit. I'll put the details in my journal (maybe after he get fired or something I'll let you know). (You didn't really think I was going to put ALL my business on the net, did you? Don't get me wrong, some people do, and I like some of those blogs, but that ain't me. I'll go deep a bunch but a lot of stuff is NOT for public consumption.)

Sunday, August 24, 2008

R.I.P. Juilius Carry III aka SHO NUFF!!

I gotta say this man, though he was never a big star in mainstream hollywood, he was definitely a superstar in Hollyhood! Sho' Nuff is still one of the best antagonists is "Black" film. Yeah, there was a bit of overacting but it was like the next-gen blaxploitation with kung fu. AND I ALONG WITH A GENERATION OF YOUNG BLACK CHILDREN LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I'm sure a whole lot of non-black kids liked it too, I'm just sayin'. I gotta speak from the perspective I know I know.) I have seen Julius in quite a few things over the years, nothing major, but how was he really gonna top The Shogun of Harlem!

Was he the baddest mofo low down 'round this town? And will he be missed?


People, people

I am trying to get in contact with people from the past. Jr High and High School years. I've found some or they've found me and it's been cool. Interesting. Though life goes on and grows ever more complicated(for some) it's nice the ties you hold without really thinking about it. I truly believe that, even though it's been over ten years since I've spoken with any of the people I've come back into contact with, they all were genuinely happy to hear from me. I know I was genuinely happy to hear from them. I don't have any grand expectations or anything, a decade is a long time, but it's just good to know that these people you shared considerable time with are doing well. Those last school years can be tumultuous. They are literally a time of personal transition; physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. And you're going through this rather dramatic change with a whole BUNCH of people going through their own changes. Interesting times. Just wanted to get that out. I'm still looking for a few more. Be interesting if they're looking for me, or just come across me in this aether realm here we all travel through now. If you find me here or on myspace or facebook or even the cheesy drop me a line, and say Hi. LAter.


Saturday, August 23, 2008

Black Female Actors and Sci-Fi/Fantasy films/movies

I was just reminded of something. John Scalzi has a blog on about the wonderful character Ellen Ripley, beautifully and expertly played by the gifted Sigourney Weaver; every single time. Despite each overall film. I am a fan of all, but let's be real, they weren't all spectacular. But her performance always was, even in the near debacle that was 4. Anyways, I won't rehash what John said 'cause he wrote it so well already. Read the entry (it's linked above). What I wish to say, being an intelligent Black Man AND a lover of SF, is I've always had a particular interest in any writers and actors, who looked like me and my ancestors. It's no secret that the hollywood machine has always put out rather onesided(WHITE) stories. Over the years I've grown on this planet and in this country I've seen the business grow as well, albeit much much much slower than me. Well I still remember the first time I saw a black female in a SF movie and I've loved her work ever since. The beautifully wonderful Angela Bassett: gifted, superb actor and hugely underrated and unappreciated by mainstream hollywood. The film was Critters 4. Absolutley not a good film. I'm already a smartass teenager at the time it comes out but just knowing she was in it I had to watch it. Angela makes that movie bearable, period. And over the years Angela's star has risen; better projects, more respect but also I noticed, she LIKED doing SF films because she kept doing them even though she didn't really have to. (Meaning despite the critically acclaimed successes of some SF films, ie.: Star Wars, Alien 1&2, Bladerunner SF was still looked at as rather infantile by the industry garnering very little respect. Therefore actors who did THOSE films were looked at as kind of lowly.) Yet despite gaining respect doing contemporary dramas, she still from time to time chose to tell a compelling story through SF, ie.: Vampire in Brooklyn, Strange Days, Contact(Wonderful film. Love her part too.), and the surprisingly good Supernova (small film but I really liked it.). And I love her for it. I really and truly hope I get to see her in another SF film before she retires from the game. That's one. I absolutely LOVED Sanaa Lathan in the first AvsP film. I know most people disliked that movie but I loved it, if for no other reason (I do have others) than the fact that she was the main protagonist and actually lived to the end, WITH the respect of the Predators! FUCK all of ya'll who don't get why that's so important AND cool. Plus she was also Blade's mom in the first Blade. And how FINE was she in that. Vastly underused in that film,though it is still the BEST in the series. Of course Jada in Demon Knight and the Matrix series along with Nona Gaye, who I'm looking forward to seeing a lot more in film. How supremely FINE was Nona in the second XXX. And yeah, I actually liked that movie. It had it's flaws but it was no worse than the first one, actually better. Anyone know of any other Black female actors in decent, semi-decent films feel free to let me know. Sometime later I'll do my blog about Black male actors. And also Black writers of SF (There aren't that many though thankfully more are popping up. I'm joining the ranks soon!)

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Ah Shit!!

I just had an epiphany moment! I'ma piss a whole lotta people off right now. No long explanations, just the thought maybe a quick referendum of my thought process and that all. Here goes my thought: First, this whole situation/movement/thingy people have about the word Nigger (in all of it's spelling incarnations) and claiming it for our own and using it "positively",thereby switching it up on the originators of the word is immensely stupid. Now, there are many out there who agree with me that that train of thought, no matter how noble it may be, is silly but call themselves christians. And to me being Black and a christian, really being one period (but especially if you're Black), is just as stupid as trying to make Nigger a positive term of endearment by changing the spelling and/or pronunciation. Now, you may rant and rave and foam at the mouth.......Okay. Here's my very quick reasoning. Christianity from it's birth was a form of social control. Now in the closer history, the time of enslavement of my African ancestors in the "New World", christianity was most definitely used to make sure slaves not only stayed slaves but blindly accepted and enjoyed being such. Now many of those ancestors proving they were indeed intelligent Human Beings turned that shit back onto their oppressors. Unfortunately, in using the oppressors rules to help free themselves they still fell under the spell of it. Don't get me wrong, the bible is a good book. Excellent, good information in it. But I've read MANY good books in my life with excellent good information in them. Okay, attack!

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Tuesday, August 19, 2008


HOW COOL IS IT THAT LAURENCE FISHBURNE IS GOING TO BE THE NEW CSI CHIEF AFTER WILLIAM PETERSEN (GRISSOM) LEAVES THE SHOW. And the story arc they have for him is just so cool. And you know so few actors could really pull that type of character off. If you can't tell Fish is like my FAVORITE ACTOR IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!! I haven't met him yet but I can't wait to. One day maybe I'll know him well enough to be able to actually call him Fish in his presence. From what I know only his friends get to do that. I would love to be a friend of his. I know he likes poetry. Maybe he'll buy my book and like it and seek me out. That would be SO freakin' cool!! Okay, I'm done with my fanboy moment. But seriously, I'd freak if I actually got to meet him. There's not many people who impress me that much. He's one. Steven Barnes, Alan Dean Foster are two others. I'd probably keep my cool, like I did when I met Charles DeLint (That was SO cool!!!) but just beneath the surface, I'm talking RIGHT beneath, I'd be bubblin" hard. Aiight, for real, fanboy moment done. Gotta go anyway. LAter ya'll.

The more things change.....

Very interesting article I read over on the root. I gotta say it's a shame how we just default to the propaganda, social conditioning of white being equal and right. I was raised VERY different. (I'll explain later.) What I don't understand is how people don't understand that ALL of these old ass white men in gov't and media grew up in a time when my grandparents and great-grandparents were still openly niggers. And before anyone gets their brain upset, no, I don't believe all white people are evil or bad. However, history backs up my mindset, PERIOD!!! All of these senators, house reps., and journalists were young whippersnappers in the game when the Civil Rights era was going strong. YOU KNOW they all wasn't FOR equal rights for americans of African descent. As time went on and my predecessors achieved so called equal rights, it became unlawful, not to mention plain rude, to be outwardly prejudiced, bigoted, and/or racist. (Prejudice and racism are two different things.) As we say now, it was not PC. So who knows who's harboring some old hatred for us becoming free and equal among them. I'm just sayin'. Anyway, check the article. (And just between me and you those two gentlemen in that picture at the beginning of the article just LOOK evil to me. I'm not saying they are because I don't know them. It's just a bad picture. All I'm sayin'.) I'm done for now.

So much stuff

You know, I have so much stuff I want to write here. My head is so full of so many thoughts I'm gonna really have to pre-write things then post them. Mostly because I don't have constant access to the internet right now. But that works for me anyway. On to it. What I wanted to write about is this stuff with the presidential race. I'm not doing an evaluation or anything I just happened to come across something that really connected with me. I'm reading an interview article with Jay-Z in the current issue (Sept. 2008) of Vibe magazine. He makes some comments that exactly coincide with a post I put up on my myspace page. (Here's the link to it:
Now I went on my little rant there but obviously with a purpose. Now, Jay, of course, was very mature in how he addressed the situation but that's because he's at that level where he actually mixes with these politicians. As he states in the interview, he and Bill Clinton are friends. BUT there was no question in his mind about even thinking about voting for Hillary. Rollin with Obama was a no-brainer for him. And he literally stated he's willing to lose his friendship with Bill over this because, "It's bigger than our friendship." How motherfuckin' cool is Jay! Now he breaks down why from his point of view which I share. He goes on to say he makes sure to disassociate himself professionally from Obama for fear of hurting his chances. And frankly states," I ain't like the preachers and those guys. I don't wanna make inappropriate statements and keep going. I'm the guy that will fall back." Damn, Jay!!! That's what the fuck I'm TALKIN' about! Who would have thought the guy from the streets of Brooklyn would be playin' the most intelligent position and the old guard civil rights "leaders" would be playin' the house nigga, sambo role. I am SO proud of Jay-Z, Mr. Sean Carter, for being so straightforward, truthful, and most of all MINDFUL in this interview. And also to Vibe for printing it. They know who's reading this and that they need to see/read what someone of Jay-z's caliber and influence thinks on this subject. There is also, right after the interview with Jay, an article about, that's right, Barack Obama. And you have more people, rappers and others, pretty much co-signing what Jay already said, indirectly. I only used two quotes from the Vibe article, so I suggest if you don't have the issue already you go out and get it.

(I don't know how to put the copyright mark next to the quotes so I'm letting it be known right now, 'cause I don't want to get sued or anything, that those quotes are the copyright of Vibe Media Group LLC. I'm just co-signing, that's all.) Peace!

Monday, August 18, 2008

New Life

I'm embarking on a whole new ride right now. I got a job. It's really decent. Don't have to do much. No supervisors to bug the shit out of me. It's a nightshift gig at a shelter. I just keep an eye on the place. Two other guys on shift with me. Kind of a smooth ride. 11:30pm 'til 8:00am. I like it. I'm kind of a night owl anyway. Kind of. I shift. My circadian rhythms are adaptable I think. Anyways, I like my job. I started taking Aikido again. I really like the sensei and the dojo and my fellow students so I'm really sticking with it this time. And the only other variable in my life's current equation is school. Particularly finishing my degree. I'm registered at a local university. I had to get in through the adult program 'cause I am not a recent HS graduate :0! But I'm going to have to take daytime classes with these brats because my nights are kind of booked. At least three nights for Aikido. I'm willing to give up one night but that's it. So, me and whoever my counselor is going to be are going to have to make this shit work. Well, the whole point of this was to illustrate that compared to the last couple of years (I've been a semi-lazy bum since I got out of the usaf three years ago. Wow, time passes! After 10 1/2 years of that shit I didn't really want to do ANYTHING! ) I'm about to really be busy. I'm going to have know choice but to really participate in the race. The Human race for yous who didn't get that. Oh yeah, I HAVE to maintain my writing as well through all of this busyness I am embarking on. But living life is always the best fuel for a writers imagination. My man Dave does it so I'm sure I'll be able to as well.

Sunday, August 17, 2008


I hate when I find something I want then it doesn't work the way it's supposed to and I can't figure out how to make it work! I finally found out how to get the advert. widget from amazon, thanks to David Anthony Durham's blog. He has the widget and there's a link to get your own. So I did. I built it and everything. But when it was supposed to link to my blog I get a freakin" error message! And I can't find the right fucking support link to send the damn error code to. And none of the support page FAQs I went to had any explanations pertaining to my particular problem. I'm not completely ignorant of HTML but I am very far from proficient at it, so, when I tried to add the link directly on the HTML edit page on my blog, naturally that didn't work for me. AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I hate not being able to figure shit out. I'ma keep trying 'til I figure it out. LAters.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

I'm doin' it!!

Well, I figured since I'm over here all the time reading Steven Barnes' blog and Christopher Chamber's blog and others I might as well post my own. I have a few blog entries on my myspace page but I figured I might as well jump in where more people can see my thoughts. I am a writer and newly dedicated martial artist and a male human being whose genetics are mainly African and Native american and whose nationality is american. This is how I think of myself. I am most decidedly not an African american. That is a title of nationality and I did not emigrate here from Africa (don't get it twisted, I love the continent of my distant ancestors, however) I was born right here in america like many of my ancestors before me. I also served in my country's military, for quite a while actually, which makes me very freakin' american! And gives me the RIGHT to talk about anything pertaining to the u.s.a. anyway I see fit! So, anyone got a problem with that, go to your nearest zoo and kiss some rhinoceros balls!!! Other than that, I'm the nicest person I know, ;-), I have a very tight circle of great friends and a wonderful family. I have a book of poetry published and am working on short stories and other writing projects including more poetry.